Deer Day

I cannot get the sight of that poor Deer, a doe, trying to struggle to get up and get off the road after she had been hit this morning. We saw her while riding the van on the way to work. OMG. That was so sad. My goodness, life is so fragile. Just so fragile. You just never know what is going to happen to you, or someone in your family, or anything from one minute to the next. It is simply amazing. It is mind boggling. Cheating husbands, and crazy children treating their parents rotten. Sick friends, and people who lose their jobs right out of nowhere. Checks bouncing that you could have sworn were good. An empty savings account when you knew you had at least 10 dollars. I mean my oh my.
The only thing that I know is true so far in this world is my daddy and my grandmother Ruth loved me to the ends of the earth. More than anyone could love anyone. And that feels good. And I have them in my memory banks when times get tough, and I want to feel a real true love for me and no one ever can ever take that away. An the only other thing I know for sure, and can count on is that I know All mighty God the father loves me and will be with me here on this earth till the end. He loves me. Man that is a feeling I wish everyone could have. Cause even when you are sad, and hurting, and worried and depressed, you know you have God the Father right there with you. And he is feeling everything with you. He knows. He knows.
I am asking God to be with me today. And to be with all of my friends and family that I know are struggling with something awful. Please be with all of us and help us to see light at the end of the tunnel Lord. And help us to know that you are with us, and you have your hand gently on the small of our backs walking with us through our days. And Thank you Lord for all of your gifts you have given me. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to have my dad for my father here on earth. He was the best. And thank you for all of my grandparents, my mom, my brother, his family, all my friends. All the pets I have ever had. Every living breathing thing that has crossed my path Lord I feel was there for a reason, and I want to thank you for the opportunity to have had them.
So that I may learn, and grow, and love the most that is possible for me.
Help to lead me down the right path for me Lord. Please help me to be in the best place I can be as to where I should live. So I can afford to live. Help me decide if I should stay where I am, get a roommate there, move out somewhere, just whatever it is I need to do, please help me to decide Lord. Thank you for everything Lord. I love you. Ruthie