Friday!

Today is my last day of the work week. A good Ole' Friday.
I am going to visit my friend Stacy tomorrow, and we are going to
hang out, and do sister things. She is such a good, well she is a great
friend of mine. I cannot wait to see her. She is like blood to me. She
is like a blood relative. When I think of my favorite Ruth Verse in the
bible, I think of her.
I called my brother, and asked him if I could stop by on Sunday on my way back from Graham to visit my nephew Nathaniel. I got a no. That
his wife was back in school, and a visit would not be good this weekend.
This makes me real sad. I was hoping so much that in 2010, our relationship would be the way I want it to be! Like what I think of normal family relationships to be. That you just pop by when you want, you don't have to make appointments and all that to see little babies that you just love so much. Little babies that have your blood in their veins, and that you can see your Mama and Daddy in their face. I have prayed for my brother for his wife, for our relationship. I know that I will continue to pray for us. And for our relationship. That God might have us be together again as a family one day. I am sad. But, I have Faith that the Lord will help me. He always, always has when I have asked for help in Earnest. The thing is, he does not always answer the way I hope for, but the right answer always comes. So, I will lean upon my faith, and my trust in God the Father all Mighty, that our relationship is going the way
it needs to go, and the little boy that I love will know me as his Aunt Ruthie. And he will love me for all my good qualities and not even care about the times I have missed the mark, but tried again. I know God's Grace. I have felt it many times. He will take care of me. He will help my heart accept and learn how to love my brother and his family in a way that will work for all of us. Until then, I have pictures and I have hope in
my heart. I do not walk alone.